What does it mean to believe in yourself. To be fearless in the pursuit of the unimaginable dream. To know that you are worthy of anything you set your mind to.
In a world that tells us to blend in, its a challenge to allow ourselves to stand out. To trust in the process of what we are doing. To continue to place one foot in front of the other, regardless of what others say. To see our bodies as beautiful master pieces instead of forcing it to fit a mold that is unobtainable.
Something happens when you believe in yourself. It’s this realization that you are capable of anything you set your mind to. Understanding that regardless of what society tells you is acceptable to this world, that they are wrong. Because you are beautiful, you are worthy, you are strong, and you can do anything.
And this is exactly what took place in 2018. I set aside the expectations of the world and sought after what was true. I began to believe in what God has called me to. To deepen my relationship with the one who matters most. To believe that the God of the universe could and does love me more then I can explain or understand. That He has a good and perfect plan for me.
I believe that I could chase a dream. That I could crack 30 minutes in a 5k and destroy my marathon time. I ended up getting a PR each month in 2018, which was an unexpected blessing and testament to the hard work I put in throughout the year.
I believed that I could love and be loved. I put my heart out on the line, expressed how I felt, dared to get to know new people, and even pursue dating. These are things that I had not entirely done in the past. I know that I can trust people far more then I do, that getting your heart broken is all part of the game, and being willing to try is far greater then just sitting aside watching the world pass by.
I believed in deeper friendships, in trusting the unknown, in my own ability to really chase those big dreams. I’ve always had this dream of being in upper level administration in higher education, but a Ph.D. would be required. And now I am chasing that dream by working towards my Ph.D. I invested in the places I am at most, took a chance on joining a new life group, and really believed in who I am as a person.
The reality of believing in yourself is daunting and challenging. It is easy to say “oh yeah, I believe I can do that”. But when push comes to shove, I have noticed that not as many people actually believe in their own ability. And proving to myself that I could actually believe in myself and change my perspective on this has been far rewarding. 2018 follows through to be a monumental year for me in many regards. And the Year of Believe is added to a list of years that stand out as being on of the more impactful years, right alongside the Year of Strive (2016), and the Year of Fearless (2017).
And as step into a new year, I am excited to see what it has in store and the ways the Year of Intentional will change my life in a new way.
Until next time
-Be Fearless, Go Boldly